"The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry."
~ Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell To Arms



"Our lives disconnect and reconnect, we move on, and later we may touch one another, again bounce away. This is the felt shape of a human life, neither simply linear nor wholly disjunctive nor endlessly bifurcating, but rather this bouncey sequence of bumping into's and tumblings apart."
~ Salman Rushdie, The Ground Beneath Her Feet



Thursday, December 1, 2011

A Storm That Brings Clarity....

"Looking hard into your eyes
There was nobody I'd ever known
Such an empty surprise to feel so alone

Now for me some words come easy
But I know that they don't mean that much
Compared with the things that are said when lovers touch
You never knew what I loved in you
I don't know what you loved in me
Maybe the picture of somebody you were hoping I might be..."


"How long have I been sleeping
How long have I been drifting alone through the night
How long have I been dreaming I could make it right
If I closed my eyes and tried with all my might
To be the one you need

Awake again I can't pretend and I know I'm alone
And close to the end of the feeling we've known..."



“All actual life is encounter.” ~ Martin Buber

"Where there is ruin, there is hope for treasure." ~ Rumi

She seemed so raw and so real, a woman of fiery mystical intelligence and crazed beauty. Her eyes stunned and pierced my soul while she silently listened to my story and absorbed with her body some of my pain. She didn’t try to fix or suggest, no "you should do this or that," she just sat with me, talked with me, held my hand, kissed me, and was present with and for me; as refreshing as an early spring rain.

Her being brought a storm into my life - a brief, furious, sweeping storm that ravaged and churned all that it touched. Full of lightening, thunder, rain, wind and then the calm tranquil peace of contentment and sleep. She asked a question that no one had asked before, a question that remains etched in my mind and the questions itself reveals all that she is, “would you rather me know you by reading what you have written or by being with you?” It is a question that pleads for connection and relationship, for being and experiencing of life together.

Then she vanished as quickly as she had come. An ethereal wisp of presence, an eff of the ineffable both an angel and a devil vanishing into the night leaving her spirit to both haunt and comfort my loneliness and discontent. She set me on a course, a direction, yet without a destination. The journey continues and all journeys are risks.


"Sometimes touching another person is more than I can bear." ~ Walt Whitman

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