"The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry."
~ Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell To Arms



"Our lives disconnect and reconnect, we move on, and later we may touch one another, again bounce away. This is the felt shape of a human life, neither simply linear nor wholly disjunctive nor endlessly bifurcating, but rather this bouncey sequence of bumping into's and tumblings apart."
~ Salman Rushdie, The Ground Beneath Her Feet



Saturday, November 21, 2015

Camus




"My dear,

In the midst of hate, I found there was, within me, an invincible love.
In the midst of tears, I found there was, within me, an invincible smile.
In the midst of chaos, I found there was, within me, an invincible calm.
I realized, through it all, that…
In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer.
And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger – something better, pushing right back.

Truly yours,"


~ Albert Camus, The Stranger



Surrender





Sweetly
Surrendered
To you
In awe 
Of being 
Loved
Wanted and accepted 
Just as I am
To do everything and nothing 
With you
In moments 
Stretching into forever 


Saturday, November 14, 2015

Grandfather





Leaving Poland
That day 
Separating yesterday from tomorrow 
He must have said goodbye
He had to have said, "I love you"
What did he think when he walked away
Did he see their faces when he closed his eyes
Did love fade away
Or just interrupted 
By war and circumstance
Letters back and forth
From one hand to another's 
After all the years 
Why didn't he go back
Caught between hearts
What did he think when he walked away 


Sunday Night


Sunday night
dimly lit room
Looking at photos and words
listening to Jackson Brown
Drinking tea
thinking about a beautiful woman
I really like
wishing she was with me
Sharing silence
soft touches and candle light
Sunday night


Anchor


Want to
Be
Connected to you 
When all the craziness of life whirls around us 
I want you to be my anchor 
And I will be yours 
In the storms
In the night
I will be your lifeline 
No matter what life throws at us
Connecting 
Everyday
Even in the briefest or smallest 
Of ways
To know where our hearts are
Day by day
Connected to you 


With Me



I hear your voice
I see your face

Without trying 
You're always with me

Carrying you in my thoughts
Walking with you in my heart 


Thursday, November 12, 2015

Jackson Browne For A Dancer





Naked Poetry



(http://yidan.tumblr.com/tagged/my%20art)

Lazy afternoon love
Naked poetry on white sheets
Smiling and laughing 
As sunlight dances on our bodies
Gazing into each other's eyes
While
Kissing with teasing tongues


Entre Nous




We are secrets to each other
Each one’s life a novel
No-one else has read
Even joined in bonds of love
We’re linked to one another
By such slender threads
 
We are planets to each other
Drifting in our orbits
To a brief eclipse
Each of us a world apart
Alone and yet together
Like two passing ships
 
Just between us
I think it’s time for us to recognize
The differences we sometimes fear to show
Just between us
I think it’s time for us to realize
The spaces in between
Leave room for you and I to grow
We are strangers to each other
Full of sliding panels
An illusion show
Acting well-rehearsed routines
Or playing from the heart?
It’s hard for one to know
 
We are islands to each other
Building hopeful bridges
On a troubled sea
Some are burned or swept away
Some we would not choose
But we’re not always free

~ Neil Peart (Rush)


Sunday, November 8, 2015

Refuge





“Who will pull me up from the ashes?
Who will lift me from the ground?
When the one who built my refuge?
Is the one who burned it down…”
~ Larry Campbell


I’m a heavy soul
Will you bare the weight
Inside I have darkness
Will you be the light
I really like you
Really more than like
I want to say
The three sacred words
When the time is right
I feel you in the wind baby
In my thoughts
The sun sings your name
As my heart is turning to yours
For refuge
For healing in the night


Sweet Addiction





Once lost
Buried in the bowels of darkness
A candle lit in a window
Gleaming hope of desire
Writhing
Climbing
Fighting
Our way to the light
A beacon inside so beautiful
A lighthouse
Always shining
Always guiding
To our safe harbor
Pain and hurt peeling away
Layer by layer
Day by day
You’ve become my sweet addiction
I crave you
I’m a junkie baby and you’re my drug
My addiction
The needle to my vein
Bury your love needle deep inside me
As deep as it will go
My sweet elixir
I need you
Pulsating through my veins
Giving life
Making me free
You are the lost and forgotten words
The forgotten words
I’ve been searching for
The love
I didn’t think I deserved
The love
I dreamt about
Our path
Our journey
Unfolding in front of us
Day by day
You are the song moving inside me
The song I want to sing
My sweet addiction

You...you...you...
My drug
My addiction
My ceaseless urge - my fix
The needle
Under my skin
The cold chill of desire
The pill
In my mouth
The shot of sweet intoxication
The opiate
In my lungs to erase the hurt
A momentary suspension of existence
Our bed an oasis
Floating away
Hibernating with you
Held in each others arms in a smoke induced otherness
Incense filling my nostrils and you my senses
Between sheets soaked in desire
Mutilated with passion
Love stained heart
Track marks on our souls
The darkness envelops us – you my only light
My passage to life - my release - my high - my trembling compulsion
Only breath
A faint heart beat
Only...only...only
The night between us
The candles flicker
And moonlight casts shadows
On our naked tangled bodies








Saturday, November 7, 2015

Our Story







"Wasn't that the definition of home? Not where you are from, but where you are wanted?"
~ Abraham Verghese, Cutting For Stone

“Know the difference with sleeping with someone
And sleeping with someone you love
I love you ain't no pick up line so
Always stay humble and kind…”
~ Tim McGraw


Her eyes
Captured his imagination
Like no eyes have
In a very long time
Light dancing with beauty

(he wanted to sit across from her)

Look into them
Share time with her
Telling their stories
To each other
As the day turned into night


~~~~~~~


if blessed
he imagined meeting her
on a bridge
over the Seine
as words in a poem
while it rained
as they danced
like stars falling
her eyes translating his feelings
writing a story
like Hemingway in a cafe
characters forever
on the pages of time


~~~~~~~


Caressing the waves
To the shore
The wind
Like my feelings
Pulling my thoughts
To you


~~~~~~~


They stopped walking.
He held her hands.
Standing in front of her.
Looking at her for a long time.
She asked, “why are just standing looking at me?”
He said, “I don’t want to forget this moment – it will never be here again.”
She smiled and her eyes laughed.
He said, “stand still, I am going to take your picture with my eyes”
She looked at him like he was crazy and maybe he was a little but that didn’t matter to her. The sun lit up her face like a flash on a Polaroid camera.
He said, “got it. I have a photo of you that can’t be erased.”
Then they continued walking along the Seine.


That Sunday ~ The Sunday ~ When everything changed


Coffee and cookies
In comfy pajamas
Lazy cozy and cuddled
On an October day
Her hair tangled
They talked between the easy silence
Like old friends
Without expectations
Warm together while crisp autumn air rustled leaves
She asked him about dreaming
He asked her about cookie crumbs
She told him she was like a cookie, "crispy on the outside but soft and chewy on the inside"
He smiled and said, "I like how you look"
They spent the day on the couch
Hundreds of miles apart
I want to come home
To a place where I am wanted
To a smiling face
Open arms and a warm heart
To a place I left long ago
I want to come home
To you



 “We are all just waiting for someone to notice—notice our pain, notice our scars, notice our fear, notice our joy, notice our triumphs, notice our courage. And the one who notices is a rare and beautiful gift.”
~ Rachel Macy Stafford



Connected
And
Drawn
To you

Like…

A lyric to a tune
Needle to a vein
Comfort to pain
Grace to the fallen
Stars to the night
Anxiety to need
Runner to the road
Thief to the night
Lovers to a bed
Flowers to the sun
Water to the well

Connected
And
Drawn
To you

 ~~~~~~~


He spun around
She reached out a hand
Catching his heart
Before he crashed to the ground
Wrapping herself around him like the night
Her body his
Wrapping her legs around him
His arms tight around her
Sharing the same air
Whispering
Laughing
They slept and played
And made love
Writing memories
With their eyes
He spun around


~~~~~~~


Together baby
You and I
Looking for words
To express
What I feel
Devotion baby
Devotion is what I feel
Deep
Daring
Delightful
Devotion
To you
To us
Lover and friend
Devotion


~~~~~~~ 


 He felt a calmness come over him
Like the soft grey clouds hanging in the sky
She calmed him
Caressing his heart
With her love
He felt still
Like a lake without waves
Still and calm
With her



“THERE IS NO SLEEP SO DEEP I WOULD NOT HEAR YOU THERE.”
~ Samuel Beckett, The Footfalls



Monday, November 2, 2015

Ride





(Lana Del Rey, Ride)

He spun around
She reached out a hand
Catching his heart
Before he crashed to the ground
Wrapping herself around him like the night
Her body his
Wrapping her legs around him
His arms tight around her
Sharing the same air
Whispering
Laughing
They slept and played
And made love
Writing memories
With their eyes
He spun around