“Sweet the sin, bitter the taste in my mouth.
I see seven towers, but I only see one way out.
You gotta cry without weeping, talk without speaking
Scream without raising your voice…” ~ U2
I see seven towers, but I only see one way out.
You gotta cry without weeping, talk without speaking
Scream without raising your voice…” ~ U2
Stillness
A scream and a bright
light
Inception of chaotic angst
Everything keeps moving like an earthquake beneath my feet
Nothing to grasp onto
The earth opens to swallow me
I run...
To nowhere and no one
From death and to death
The space between the two deaths
Bleeds my soul
Bleeding for meaning in the in-between times
Of unconsciousness to unconsciousness
Splintered and fractured like moments dancing across the
clouded sky of disbelief
Wanting to go back home (whatever home is?)
To the start of the madness
Then rewind it all and press play again like a used cassette
tape
With songs of a life imprinted on it
Stories of mystical pristine abstracted memories
My life a mixed tape of uncertainty with no way to hear the
music
So l look at the sky and close my eyes
Light fragments painted on the sky canvas pirouette
While poets write words of make believe
I am pretending my
soul is not bleeding
The earth has not opened up
I am not running
But at peace again
Making all the doubt inconsequential
Quieted body
No words
Stillness
I need someone who believes in me more than I believe in
myself for I have lost myself somewhere along the way...
There were always people who believed in you and we still do. What happened to you is that you stepped into a time and town where people did not believe in you and you stayed there, all the while losing who you really where. Those who cared about you saw this, but we could never convince you of it. It will be hard but you must move forward and become now the person God wants you to be. Brokenness is being absolutely realistic about who we are, our failure and our utter dependence on Him. People who are aware of their sin and need are in a much healthier relationship with God than those who think they are ok. We would love to have you come back home and start to heal, we know it will take time, we are here for you. We would like to know how you feel about this, maybe you are looking for someone else to tell you this. Mom & dad love you but not as perfectly as God does. Take His hand and move forward, we know you can do it.
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