Divine Milieu...Jesus Christ Superstar - I Don't Know How To Love Him...

Is this not the universal question, how do I love well or at all? Not only how to love Jesus for Mary Magdalene or any of us, but for each other to each other. In our hearts, the depth of our being the question echoes out of the silence of our thoughts, "I don't know how to love him..." or her or God.

What happens if we risk and love, why is it a fearful thing to do? Is it really so illusive? Love. Is it what we are all aching for, to be loved and accepted for who we are not who we are expected to be either by ourselves or by others? Is that why we journey on, looking for friends to love and journey with us becasue all of us know whether we admit it or not feel at times like Bono sings, "...I still haven't found what I am looking for..." and we "..hold the hand of the devil, it is warm in the night..." because that is less frightning than loving another person and in the cold and lonliness of the dark night it brings momentary comfort?

Hmmm...anyway this is a great song asking profound questions?


I don't know how to love him.
What to do, how to move him.
I've been changed, yes really changed.
In these past few days, when I've seen myself,
I seem like someone else.
I don't know how to take this.
I don't see why he moves me.
He's a man. He's just a man.
And I've had so many men before,
In very many ways,
He's just one more.
Should I bring him down?
Should I scream and shout?
Should I speak of love,
Let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this.
What's it all about?
Don't you think it's rather funny,
I should be in this position.
I'm the one who's always been
So calm, so cool, no lover's fool,
Running every show.
He scares me so.
I never thought I'd come to this.
What's it all about?
Yet, if he said he loved me,
I'd be lost. I'd be frightened.
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope.
I'd turn my head. I'd back away.
I wouldn't want to know.
He scares me so.
I want him so.
I love him so.