“There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there
and few have ever gone
If I show it to you
now
Will it make you run
away…
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push
you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I
really am
Please remind me who
I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture
perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're
worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark
side?”
Like a cancer of my mind ~ depression eats away ~ my soul…
From Celexa to Wellbutron today…
I wake up tired from sleeping ~ could stay in bed for days ~
makes me feel lazy but I don’t want to feel like that. Want to feel like doing
something ~ anything…
The words ~ what am I doing here ~ what am I doing anywhere
~ keep playing in my mind ~ over and over…
Is it that I need somebody beside me to deeply love me ~ to
be with me and not be afraid of this darkness?
Life seems like, feels like and incredible amount of effort
~ a vast impossibility. Which is why I believe I feel so defeated, I have given
up in some way (almost without me knowing it) stepped off the track during the
race.
Nothing excites me ~ emotionally flat ~ lost hope ~ so
tired…
Unopened dreams ~ scattered over my existence…
Words come slowly ~ my body exhausted…
Sleep is warm ~ comfort from anguish…
Sleep is a blanket to be wrapped in ~ soft assurance of
peace…
Bleeding without blood ~ feeling without tears…
Life limps like a beggar on a dirty street corner…
What does it mean if it all means nothing?
In time ~ love turns ~ affections shift…
Someday I think ~ not sure which…
Words are conjured ~ from unconscious caverns…
Do people think about living or what it means to be alive ~ or do they just exist? Exist without questioning why?
We love you for who you are, we will always support you. We know it is very hard for you, but we are here to help you. We love you...mom & dad
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