"The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry."
~ Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell To Arms



"Our lives disconnect and reconnect, we move on, and later we may touch one another, again bounce away. This is the felt shape of a human life, neither simply linear nor wholly disjunctive nor endlessly bifurcating, but rather this bouncey sequence of bumping into's and tumblings apart."
~ Salman Rushdie, The Ground Beneath Her Feet



Saturday, August 18, 2012

Book of Job Part 1 ~ Why?


 (William Blake ~ Illustrations for the Book of Job)


Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised.
~ Job 1:21

Then Job took a piece of broken pottery and scraped himself with it as he sat among the ashes.  
~ Job 2:8

Then they sat on the ground with him for seven days and seven nights. No one said a word to him, because they saw how great his suffering was.  
~ Job 2:13

After seven days of silence Job spoke:

After this, Job opened his mouth and cursed the day of his birth.

He said:

May the day of my birth perish, and the night that said, "A boy is conceived!" That day—may it turn to darkness; may God above not care about it; may no light shine on it.

 (William Blake ~ Illustrations for the Book of Job)

May gloom and utter darkness claim it once more; may a cloud settle over it; may blackness overwhelm it. That night—may thick darkness seize it; may it not be included among the days of the year nor be entered in any of the months.

May that night be barren; may no shout of joy be heard in it.

 May those who curse days curse that day, those who are ready to rouse Leviathan.

May its morning stars become dark; may it wait for daylight in vain and not see the first rays of dawn, for it did not shut the doors of the womb on me to hide trouble from my eyes.

Why did I not perish at birth, and die as I came from the womb?

Why were there knees to receive me and breasts that I might be nursed?

For now I would be lying down in peace; I would be asleep and at rest with kings and rulers of the earth, who built for themselves places now lying in ruins, with princes who had gold, who filled their houses with silver.

Or why was I not hidden away in the ground like a stillborn child, like an infant who never saw the light of day?

There the wicked cease from turmoil, and there the weary are at rest. Captives also enjoy their ease; they no longer hear the slave driver's shout. The small and the great are there, and the slaves are freed from their owners.

 Why is light given to those in misery, and life to the bitter of soul, to those who long for death that does not come, who search for it more than for hidden treasure, who are filled with gladness and rejoice when they reach the grave?

 Why is life given to a man whose way is hidden, whom God has hedged in?

For sighing has become my daily food; my groans pour out like water.

What I feared has come upon me; what I dreaded has happened to me.

 I have no peace, no quietness; I have no rest, but only turmoil.

(Job 3:1-26 TNIV)


1 comment:

  1. Wonder what would happen if you applied a different strategy to your healing? You've explored dwelling in pain and suffering--for much longer than anyone should. Perhaps you might consider taking the gratitude approach? Read: The Happiness Advantage, The Seven Principles of Positive Psychology that Fuel Success and Performance at Work. Completely applicable to daily life. Start dwelling in what is good with life. What is beautiful. Focus on passages of the bible that embrace the grace of happiness, books that focus on the true beauty of life--not the ugly side of humanity. Take baby steps toward making small improvements in your daily life. More walks with the dog. Volunteer. Find employment (part-time or whatever) that will give you a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day. If you want it bad enough you will find a way, it IS that simple regardless of what you might be leading yourself to believe. And, yes, this comes from someone who has dealt with
    depression, who has pulled themselves up by the
    proverbial bootstraps and made it happen. It can be done, but YOU have to WANT IT.

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